Not a Breathairian and other reamblings

Well, we went to the dietitian a couple of times, and things are better. I'm on a diet that limits my carb intake to 45g/meal, or 15g/snack, no more than 60g of protein a day, no more than 2000mg of sodium or potassium a day.

This is workable, but not preferable. The reason for this is that the potassium restriction cuts out a lot of legumes and fresh fruit and vegetables that I was eating regularly. However, Nick & I talked to the dietitian, who talked to the kidney doctor, and the general idea is that we do this until I lose enough weight to maybe get off my meds that are making my potassium levels rise. I've already cut my insulin in half, and I'm hopeful that the rest will follow, even if it takes time.

So, things are looking less grim.

I'm discovering that the life-lesson for this time in my life is to be kind to myself. Its harder than you'd think! For me, it involves going to bed early enough to get the rest I need (which is apparently quite a lot), staying within my diet, & such suches. But its also doing little things. I started knitting myself a pair of socks. I"ve now ripped it out three times, and am now half way through the 6inch cuff on the first one, and having a hard time making myself work on this project. This is from a woman who can whip out a pair of socks in 2-3 days for anyone else. I completed a pair of mittens in 2 days, and I can't knit a sock for myself in 4? Its starting to make me wonder why I don't allow myself to complete nice pretty projects for myself. I have 2 shawls in the works that I've been working on for a long time. One of them for over 4 years. I still can't complete them.

I need to explore this, and get to the bottom of it. And I will. But right now, I'm going to go finish the cuff of that damned sock.